CSA Survivor Story – 7.
She must have been 6 years old then. The family had moved to a new city as a result of her father’s transfer. And he must have been her father’s age. Being among the few close acquaintances in a new town, he was welcomed into the home. He helped them with the initial setting in and in return robbed her of her dignity. That fateful evening he visited their house on the pretext of checking if everything was fine. He knew that the father would still be in the office. The mother stepped into the kitchen to arrange for some tea and snacks. She was sitting right there in the sitting room, busy with her coloring.
The mother would have taken about 15 mins in the kitchen preparing tea and arranging some snacks. Those 15 mins were enough for him to grab her, make her sit on his lap, force her hand in his pants and put his hand up her skirt. She knew it was wrong, she felt it was dirty but she didn’t know what to do. And it was over, just like it had started. She felt wet, sick and diseased.
People used to call her the sunshine girl. But suddenly she was all quite and gloomy. Parents thought she was missing her old home and city and would eventually settle in. They didn’t notice that she was washing her hands all the time. They did notice that she was scared and clingy but attributed it to the new place.
She is 30 now. Still single. Never had a boy friend. Says that she doesn’t want to marry. By the day she is a confident girl and by the night she is back to fighting the demons. The incident is so deeply etched in her mind that it’s impossible for her to move beyond it.
Has she survived the abuse? I don’t think so. The monster still roams free unaware of the damage he has done. There has been no justice for her. What are the chances that the wound that hasn’t healed in 24 years, will heal now?
She is in my prayers all the time. And I request you to pray for her, so she lets go and starts afresh.
This really pained me so much…Yes, she will be in my prayers from today.
Thank you, Corinne, on her behalf.
its horrific…yes i shall pray for her too…its true the effects of these incidents manifest in so many ways and creep up when you least expect it to…
I share your anguish and really want to scream out loud…
Hopefully our love and wishes will help her.
I had goosebumps when I read this!!! And there are so many more untold stories like this!
Many, many more than we had ever hoped to encounter, sadly.
O god. I’m running out of words to say but I do want to leave a comment behind to assure you that your voice did not go unheard. Prayers it is then if that will help her heal. May that pig rot !
Amen.
I’m having goosebumps too. What a disgusting bas***d. If there is justice, I hope he hangs to death some day!! And the poor child, tormented by this disgusting crime, I hope she finds closure. I hope she realises it is HIS fault and not hers. And I hope she finds the courage to move on. No point sacrificing her life for scum!!!! Life is so much more beautiful, I hope she manages to find the beauty lurking in every corner……
This transference of guilt is one of the biggest hurdles on the road to recovery…
Of course, she’ll be in my prayers too. But I think, she needs to open up to someone NOW. That’ll be the healer to her mental agony. Life is more things to offer her, to make her really happy – let her understand this and open up and feel the pressure reduce in her mind. Hugs my dear survivor.
Trained counsellors can really help, as some other survivors have attested.
Oh God…..sounds like…its my story 😦
i cannot say anything more!!!
Prayers prayers prayers for all…….
So sorry to hear that, Bharti. We pray for you too.
😦 prayers and positive vibes being sent her way. when one reads stuff like this, one wishes the child had some to talk to. who would help her… hope that dirty jerk rots in hell! gah!
That is what makes CSA so pernicious… its perpetrators prey on the most vulnerable members of our society.
OMG!! I really don’t know what to say…How sick can he be!!The B@#$%^%$!!Each story I read me,makes me more and more disgusted..
My heart goes out to the poor girl..I am sorry,that you couldn’t share this with someone..:(
Send her all the positive and healing vibes you can offer, please.
This is so horrible and so sad. All prayers and healing vibes being sent to her.